Murky depths

Sometimes decisions are hard to make,  but in the main I make them quickly, guess its running my own business.  But something I find really hard is waiting for someone to make a decision,  You want an answer but you don’t want to sound too pushy, for me this is the worse scenario because it challenges my need for ‘control”.   I am better at it now, but it still flags up my  “need to know” everything scenario and need it right now.  Sure this comes out of childhood feelings of no control,  so I have spent the most part of my life striving for Control and latterly trying to let go and have NO CONTROL……….. can be exhausting sometimes, but try and and just let everything unfold.  The awful thing is that it can make me very unforgiving of others…………

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