Yesterday the anger was brewing, I am moving offices next week, so much is getting stirred up, remember back in 1995 when I moved in to my new offices, although full of excitement it was a sad time for many, many reasons. This all came back up and by the time the evening had set in, had a bath and ready to watch film and relax the anger and feelings of vengefulness just overflowed. I lost my sense of being able to discriminate between what the anger was basically about and what was everyday niggles, everything seemed to need some kind of vengeful action, the adrenaline was flowing and i was ready for action.
This morning I awoke after restless night and tried to just write the angry feeling out if me, then I drew from my heart, something about angels hearing? , did it help , yes ! and then went out and treated myself to a new mediation cushion !