Since my days have become my own to choose what i do, I have been experiencing elation !! I just cannot believe why I continued to work for so long !! as always I am trying to build a daily practice, but consistancy is not my forte and although I am managing to keep a flow of writing my daily pages and trying something creative most days, my oil painting seems to have diminished. Think I am trying to do so many things including downsizing all my posessions, that in itself has been overwhelming. “one room at a time ” is my motto and I am slowly getting thought it all.
At the moment the easiest thing to do is reach for my watercolours and gouache as I can just sit down and do something quickly without too much fuss. Here are some of the outpouring.
I am now on a new journey, a journey where I can devote my time to a creative daily practice of my own.
My days of designing interiors are now over, cannot believe I ran my own successful company for so long. My only sadness it that my mother died just weeks before it all began, she never saw me put my creative skills to good use, I know she would have been so very happy for me. There are many challenges in starting a business and the first few years were extremely tough, many times I was close to giving up but thankfully that strong will of mine saw me through. My mums words “where there is a will there is way” constantly rang through my head. I also also lived through the dawning of the digital age, apple mac was my first computer in the early 90’s with my first mobile phone and over the years the working practice of a designer became totally computer driven. Out went the drawing boards and the source library an in came drawing packages, illustrator, Cad and so on. Together with a great team we have designed, procured and installed projects the length and breadth of the country.
Will I miss it all? Right in this moment in time, I would say no definitely not, interior design sounds great but it comes with massive pressure, constant deadlines and right now I am so happy to leave it al behind. Will I miss it in the future, who knows, possibly, but I know that my own creative skills have taken a back seat for so long thats its time now for this to be the main part of my day.
just a few of the ways I have been expressing myself of late.
a great day in many ways, lunch by sea and a wonderful drive meandering along the country lanes to home. Shame I couldn’t see the lunar eclipse, but in my own way I honoured this special full moon this evening with a prayer for the land. I wrote it on small squares of paper and concealed them within layers of paint in a beautiful landscape.
Friday a really sunny day and took myself of to Hastings and my usual ritual of brunch at the Jerwood Gallery. Sitting outside on the terrace looking out to sea, the sun streaming down felt relaxed and far away from work related issues. Great food, great view and of course the paintings which I always come away from feeling energised with all kinds of inspired thoughts and feelings
This time I came back with a fish, a fresh caught sole for my dinner, amazing price of £2, together with some asparagus, home made hollandaise, plenty of lemon, delicious !!
Here are some colours I especially like, one of the them by Duncan Grant, all have some association with the local area and all the colour combination will have been absorbed like a sponge and then squeezed out into my next project.
COLOUR and TEXTURE EXPLORATION
rich vibrant colours, golden high flow inks, opaque titanium white, layering, scraping back, transfer printing, great fun and very exhilerating
memories of a colourful day – Pitt Rivers Musuem – Oxford
I am going back again sometime soon !
two weeks of rest and relaxation and I am ready to face the world again. Its been an amazingly fruitful time, as being away from my own environment have felt free of the normal daily burdens that can sometimes reign in the creative process. Towards the end of last year and rather by accident I stumbled into the area of quilt making: making several as christmas presents was quite enthralling. The colour mixes one can achieve is so magical. Being a complete novice and going totally solo with it I seemed to be making it up as I go along ! The quilts so far have just been throw size, but larger bed quilts beckon, although at the moment they do feel rather daunting, not from the piecing side of things, but from the quilting aspect. I can see that I may end up with lots of quilted top pieces and not attempting the quilting. Guess I could always send them away to be quilted
I would like to share this video which I have found on the Contemporary fabrics blog. It’s a catwalk show with designers piecing together patterned fabrics. I found this really inspiring, hope you do too…………………..
So much to say but have to get on with the day job, adios folks, have a great day
The big presentation is over, have been tying up all the loose ends, putting all the samples, together, double checking codes etc in readiness for admin to start ordering, There are several hundred different items to purchase, some items have to be made up, ie window treatments, cushions etc, furniture has to be placed and with one manufacturer alone there are 140 items, this is one of many suppliers who will be making bespoke items to IDC exacting standards. Then there is all the artwork to sort out, visiting museums, choosing images to be framed and selecting photography from all the great images from Yao and purchasing all the objet d’art that bring the interiors to life. With this design hot of the press I am now ready to start detailing up the next one, an amazing tudor gothic pile in Leamington spa. Have already finalised the layouts, worked on the lighting etc, now I will be detailing all the separate items for the various rooms. The best bit really !
In between all this I have found some soothing time sewing and making quilts, none are totally finished yet, although I am working on it, caught a sneeky few hours before I trottted off down to the studio this morning. Its so nice, sitting and sewing, sometimes singing along, sometimes just humming, something very magical about quilt making. I am a mere novice and can see how one can get hooked , already I have sketches in my art books, little swatches of fabric to record colour combinations, tufts of crewel wool, ideas for crewel work patches, intertwined branches bearing fruit, and some just plains with a real graphic style with huge blocks of colour. There is something really enriching in seeing all the colours build, and amazing when unexpected colour combinations appear as one pieces the blocks together. Magic happens.
I will post some pictures soon, cant let the cat out of the bag yet because there might be spies around, After christmas watch this space.
In the meantime here are some more quilts that have caught my attention
beetroot , my favourite vegetable not only for the taste but mainly for the superb rich colours. For me eating is not just about taste, it’s about EATING WITH YOUR EYES
think too these colours would make a wonderfully rich woollen quilt !
my creative journey continues, the forests of trees that hold such abundance. Somethings calls me when I walk amongst the dancing leaves, the verdant lushness, their vitality and majestic power.
A dear friend posted this beautiful poem, I had forgotten just how beautiful these words were, a poem I had ready many times a few years back, but had faded in the mists of time…………….
Sleeping in the Forest
I thought the earth remembered me,
she took me back so tenderly,
arranging her dark skirts, her pockets
full of lichens and seeds.
I slept as never before, a stone on the river bed,
nothing between me and the white fire of the stars
but my thoughts, and they floated light as moths
among the branches of the perfect trees.
All night I heard the small kingdoms
breathing around me, the insects,
and the birds who do their work in the darkness.
All night I rose and fell, as if in water,
grappling with a luminous doom. By morning
I had vanished at least a dozen times
into something better.
The Creative Journey continues
painting with colour to map our emotions, painting with emotions, colours with name such as pain, loss, fear, sad, happy, joyous, loving.
Been a lot of loss lately for me, reminders of loss, actual loss, and an anniversary of loss. Want to paint it out of me, want to expel the indigo that is flooding through me, the purple, the deepest darkest violet……….. think I will put together a palette of emotions and just paint and see what happens, guess its the intention one puts in the task……..
This guy has a different take on emotions, his is interactive digital painting, see his website Sergio Albiac Just love the colours he works with in these portraits,