Paths through the forest

 

working with colour, different mediums, different methods, felt very fragile when completing this.  Been a difficult week, last night just wanted to get out some paint and let it happen.  Feels in some way like a journey  the  forest, flickering shades of autumn, the sun dancing on fiery leaves.

Seems I was inspired by my early morning nature walks………now these are the real thing !   Autumn leaves are so beautiful now, deep cherry reds, corals and oranges to deep purples and pinks and yellows

a new path begins – The Fool and his journey

That childlike confidence, stepping out without a care in the world.   The Fool, the archetype thats take the the hero’s journey through the numbered cards of the Major Arcana.

For me these represent the journey we all embark on, its called “Life”.    Guess this is the big picture, but within this inevitable cycle of birth, death and rebirth, that keeps turning, there are many smaller “wheels”  many deaths.  We need these deaths to give space , we have to let go of things that no longer serve us, all the areas of our life where “we do” just out of habit, or some preconcieved thought processes that we may have adopted from out parents limiting belief systems.   Their comes a time when you wake up, enough is enough !  suddenly there are new possibilities, new challenges on the horizon that are beckoning……….

Quietly sitting in the solitude of my studio I felt drawn to create a lino cut,  THE FOOL instantly captured my thoughts and it wasn’t until I was looking at it the finished result this morning, I realised the signifigance of the subject I had chosen.    I have a new path that is about to unfold next month, something that has been lurking in my mind for so long, years in fact.   In September I am to embark on a 3 year training programme to become a  Transpersonal Art Therapist.  I first heard about this course some years back when I attended sculpture classes at a studio based on the teachings of Rudolph Steiner.  I new then that one day when I wasn’t so busy I would apply.  It took a literal death of someone who had a big influence in my life, this made me sit up  and think, follow your dreams……… and I have

I am so excited, I feel like this child like person embarking on a magical journey, not knowing what to expect, taking that leap of faith.  I know too it will have its challenges, just as in life but now I know how to be in the flow of life, not resist, to accept “what is” and left life unfold in front of me.

 

we must let go of the life we have planned

WE MUST LET GO OF THE LIFE WE HAVE PLANNED, SO AS TO ACCEPT THE ONE THAT IS WAITING FOR US.  Joseph Campbell

Control seemed a useful tool; it helped to make sure that ones expected plans, outcomes, would come into reality.  Well you might think, that’s a good thing isn’t it? Is it?  Lets think about this a little more.

If we use control, our will, to shape an expectation, to bring about a thought form and make it tangible, how do we know the form we are shaping is not coming   from our distorted vision of our world?   If we control our outcomes, grasping at a fixed vision then we become so blinkered we can miss little indicators on the way that may have lead us to something more meaningful and fulfilling from entering our world.  Forcing our will to create takes a massive amount of energy, it can be very draining and we end up struggling when we reach a negative force, we start to battle, it can become a war as we fight to achieve our goals.

With Blinkers on we don’t listen to the biggest gift of all, our intuitive nature, our connection to the universal energy that supports us in every way.  We all have an instinctual gift to share in our world, a souls purpose. Some of us know this clearly and have learnt to separate out and know the difference between, what we think this should be, often through expectation of others projected upon us and what we know to be our own true journey, a hero’s journey, full of joy and passion for life.  For some it’s not so clear, but know they are being pulled along by an invisible thread to something much greater than is known to them at this time.

Dream courageously, let go of the outcome, drop the will, the control accept “what is” and allow life to unfold every second, every minute, living fully in the present with an ear tuned into the intuitive side of our nature, our feminine attributes, allows us to follow our hearts, to flow gracefully in the river of life, no struggle, no battles, just a serene unfolding that can take us to the wonderful life that is waiting for us.

A smaller example of what I mean.  I had an idea in my mind that I would be breakfasting with a friend in the park this morning followed by a nice walk, but it didn’t work out.   This meant a big hole opened in my day, and out came some pastels.  I decided to create myself in image, not particularly for the finished article but the healing process that expressing from the heart can have upon our soul, my heart in particular is in question at the moment so I wanted to express the warmth and the life giving force a healthy heart can manifest in ones life. Just going with the flow allowed me to create this day, feels very good

a clean sheet, not quite yet

the excitement is building, not long now until the brand spanking new year……..  I so love this time, a time to start again,its like writing on the   first new page of an excercise book when I was at school.  Pristine clean, new pen dipped in just the right amount of ink and writing the first word, such a wonderful feeling.  I have started writing about all the things I want to do, visit, see, experience, create……………    Cant wait, feel so full of optimism……….  just off for another visit to the sea, even though misty I just have to see it, its become a real friend.

this image started life in my bread bin !!, I don’t buy bread in general, but now and again I fancy some nice dark rye pumpernickel, which is fairly moist.  Well I must have forgotten about it totally and when I looked in there at the “zip up” plastic bag in comes in all I could see was what looked like a clump of yellow felt.  It was a mould of some sort, white and yellow, not the usual grey green colour, when I looked it up it was some kind of mould that penicillin is made off !  Just had to photograph this………..  I then layered at cut and pasted the image together to form a pattern………………….

Suzani and friends

today I received my parcel today from Tashkent, Uzbekistan !!  How exciting, ripping open the brown paper and wrapped inside in a plastic carrier bag, was my precious suzani, a hand emmroidered cloth I bought on ebay.

I have another one coming that is similar colours but a slightly different pattern, the two together plus some plain fabric i am going to create  wonderfully coloured wing chairs that will sit at my new desk.  Actually its a long trestle table, in aged silver oak, over 3m in length at which I can sit and create, write letters and eat breakfast as it looks out across to the common.

A suzani for those who may not know is a hand embroidered cloth, usually sewn in panels and joined sewn together to make a large piece.  From Central Asia, these pieces would from part of a brides dowry, shows her skills at embroidery.  Often used as wall hangings and bedcovers.  Each region can be identified by its designs, but need to research this a bit more.

Such wonderful colours, and each embroidered shape is so neatly sewn, the back is almost as neat as the front, such tiny, tiny stitches.

above are my little friends, the large boy you will recognise from my before images, (if you click the image above you will see)  he is painted black at the moment, thinking of either a bright pink shade, or repainting him white with a white with a white sculptural shade and putting in my bedroom……. decisions, decisions.  The other little friends are my all time faves my japanese collector doll uamou ,  buuts buuts uamou and boo.  Unfortunately buuts got a rubbing over by my cleaning lady and lost part of her head piece which was very annoying……….  we have a bit of a love hate relationship, but all in all we get through, the flat gets cleaned.  I cant do everything sadly, my interior design work takes a huge chunk of my time and the last thing I want to do in my spare time is clean………  You can can see the whole range of collectable uamous here http://www.uamou.com/shop/index.html

From little acorns mighty oaks do grow

A dear friend of mine recently posted a series of 4 video clips on Facebook “The man who planted trees”.  Lazily clicking the link, sipping tea and eating my special homemade muesli which I adore,  this lovely music swirled out form laptop and looking down  I saw an eagle soaring the heights in a soft gentle animation, just like the voice that was to follow, munching away, checking emails with one eye and the other on the you tube window I slowly began to become transfixed.  Such a beautiful story began to unfold.  With the last mouthful of tea sipped down and the last spoon of appley, nutty morning delight downed for the day, I sat somewhere more comfortable and watched avidly all four of the clips, I was enthralled, my heart felt so expanded as the tale unfolded and knew that I wanted to share with it all my friends.

Not only is this a story of great hope its a story about our connection to the earth,  the divine mother herself who continues to create abundance for us all.   She continues, even though so many are still hell-bent on destroying it………..   the old adage about we reap what we sow couldn’t be more appropriate here,  not only literally with the acorns, but taking care and attention with the small things in our lives, small acts of kindness, respect to our planet.  Using our great gifts of  intuition to sort  out which would be the best seeds for your situation, choose one for each area of our lives,  choose to smile and say good morning to people on your way to work,  tell your children that you love them ,daily;  make the decision to improve something in your daily routine that will make you feel good about yourself,   form a recycling clothes group,  pool resources with neighbours, there are so many ways that can grow us a wonderful new world,  all it takes is to continually sow new seed and to keep them watered  and weeded and a veritable forest of healthy growth will permeate our lands……. What a wonderful thought.