Perfectionism

Have spent some of the weekend writing up guided meditations, visualisations and all manner of stuff for a forthcoming workshop in Malta I run with a couple of friends.   In doing so I was inspired to create this image.   I call it THE MASK ………….. of perfectionism. 

I have worked with many people who are crippled by this, unable to sometimes  even make any steps forward because of the immense anxiety.   Often this control comes of out of a real sense of sadness within, it cannot be revealed at any cost so the person controls their external environment to such a degree that absolutely everything around them has to be perfect. I too have this incidious trait, it can be so cruel, I have battled with this a long time, its a lot easier now I have learnt to let go a little and life has become somewhat less anxious but the creative process can sometimes be a nightmare.  Dr Estes wrote a letter on facebook about perfectionsism,  she explains it so well, I have posted it on my other blog, click here

The image is done in oil paint, oil pastels, scanned into my laptop and layered digitally……………

More Paper

tried a different style today, and used black and white and thinner paper.  Easier to cut but not quite so “crisp”.  However it seemed quite easy to “shape” it, found that if I rub the back of the paper with the end of the scalpel handle onto a piece of foam board that the paper curls and takes on a very 3 dimensional effect, more so than my first efforts.  Learning more each time I cut them.  What I would like to do is large free form hanging paper sculpturesdark-night-small-file